Don't worry I won't bore you guys with everything that has transpired in between. Though, in a nutshell, life has been one big amusement (not!) park. I've been hopping from one ride to the next like a maniac. Though some were chilled out carousel rides but most of the time it was the frightful, roller coaster I was forced to take.
Anyway, lap one seems to be done with. It's lap two that's got me all wired up inside. Hopefully, all that should pass off well in the next few months and I won't fall off my seat in the process. Of course I've got my safety belt on- I do meditate often. And no, it doesn't really help the situation, but definitely helps me see every hurdle separately from the big picture. One baby step after another, that's the only sane way to deal with problems in the current scenario.
When ego hassles start getting the better of you, even the most happy events can turn sour for life. And it's worse when the ego issues are not yours to control. It's two against four right now. And hopefully twenty years later, all of this won't matter. God I hope it doesn't!
I'm pretty sure I'll have a blissful life. My unseen angels have been very sweet with me so far bringing me only that which gives joy. And I'm certain they shall stand by me in the future too. It's human to make errors. But to ignore, forgive and forget is no easy task. Knowledge helps you ride the tide. But, it is a rough journey. And the only thing I can do now is surrender my worries and those of others too. And trust that my angels and Master are carrying me ahead. Safely.
Off to TTC in the next two weeks. I don't know what to expect after I've completed the training program. I suppose there would be some amount of confidence in me. Perhaps I'll be able to find new talents, rekindle latent ones and polish some others (need to write better!). Maybe I'll be filled with a little pride. After all being a teacher of the Art of Living is a matter of honour. It is both a privilege and a challenge. And I wonder if the pride will go to my head. Hmmm... I suppose it is good that I am aware of this possibility at this stage. I might be able to consciously recognise and surrender any traces of unwanted ego and arrogance that may come with the kriya tape :-)
Surrender. The word has been coming up time and again these past few months. I suppose it's an important lesson to learn on the spiritual path. And the more knowledge you hear, read or see, the more insignificant you feel. Like a tiny petal in a garland of one thousand marigolds- that is my existence. Lend a little colour, spread a little fragrance and wilt away. That's pretty much what life is all about. So why all the fuss over some bee that may suck a little sweetness out of me once in a while. All I have to do is surrender and the wind will carry the little bug'ger away.
What does one not get to experience on this path. Extreme highs, extreme lows. Success, failure. Deep friendships, breaking away of old ties, jealousy (especially when you see contemporaries progressive faster than you). Breathtaking beauty, a glimpse of the ultimate peace, the sordid reality of the world. It's a complete existence here. Abundance, joy, a sense of fullness, it's all here. What's more, there is an awareness of it all happening, constantly.
Only a fortunate few find themselves on the spiritual path (some like me are here not by choice, but by accident, grace, a past-life karma). Still fewer move ahead. I'm blessed to be here, at my age, with a human birth, a living master and a teeny weeny desire to know the true purpose of life. It's all that I need to last the rest of my days.
I've always rued over my inability to explain to people the beauty of the Art of the Living course and convince them to experience it first hand. And telling myself that their karma probably doesn't allow them to taste it, doesn't do much for my confidence. Sure, I should surrender that too. But somehow I haven't been able to do that until... I learnt a little pearl of wisdom. A slight shift in the consciousness that seems to be spreading some sunny shine.
It's just a little shift in my focus- from not being able to convince people to do the course, to approaching them with the consciousness of a mother-with true care, a sense of belongingness and love. It seems to have made a little difference and broken through the dark cave, letting in a single clean white ray of hope in myself. And I'm smiling wider.
Ooops, I sense a trickle of doership here. Surrender O, surrender. Haha! Happy day dear ones!
Anyway, lap one seems to be done with. It's lap two that's got me all wired up inside. Hopefully, all that should pass off well in the next few months and I won't fall off my seat in the process. Of course I've got my safety belt on- I do meditate often. And no, it doesn't really help the situation, but definitely helps me see every hurdle separately from the big picture. One baby step after another, that's the only sane way to deal with problems in the current scenario.
When ego hassles start getting the better of you, even the most happy events can turn sour for life. And it's worse when the ego issues are not yours to control. It's two against four right now. And hopefully twenty years later, all of this won't matter. God I hope it doesn't!
I'm pretty sure I'll have a blissful life. My unseen angels have been very sweet with me so far bringing me only that which gives joy. And I'm certain they shall stand by me in the future too. It's human to make errors. But to ignore, forgive and forget is no easy task. Knowledge helps you ride the tide. But, it is a rough journey. And the only thing I can do now is surrender my worries and those of others too. And trust that my angels and Master are carrying me ahead. Safely.
Off to TTC in the next two weeks. I don't know what to expect after I've completed the training program. I suppose there would be some amount of confidence in me. Perhaps I'll be able to find new talents, rekindle latent ones and polish some others (need to write better!). Maybe I'll be filled with a little pride. After all being a teacher of the Art of Living is a matter of honour. It is both a privilege and a challenge. And I wonder if the pride will go to my head. Hmmm... I suppose it is good that I am aware of this possibility at this stage. I might be able to consciously recognise and surrender any traces of unwanted ego and arrogance that may come with the kriya tape :-)
Surrender. The word has been coming up time and again these past few months. I suppose it's an important lesson to learn on the spiritual path. And the more knowledge you hear, read or see, the more insignificant you feel. Like a tiny petal in a garland of one thousand marigolds- that is my existence. Lend a little colour, spread a little fragrance and wilt away. That's pretty much what life is all about. So why all the fuss over some bee that may suck a little sweetness out of me once in a while. All I have to do is surrender and the wind will carry the little bug'ger away.
What does one not get to experience on this path. Extreme highs, extreme lows. Success, failure. Deep friendships, breaking away of old ties, jealousy (especially when you see contemporaries progressive faster than you). Breathtaking beauty, a glimpse of the ultimate peace, the sordid reality of the world. It's a complete existence here. Abundance, joy, a sense of fullness, it's all here. What's more, there is an awareness of it all happening, constantly.
Only a fortunate few find themselves on the spiritual path (some like me are here not by choice, but by accident, grace, a past-life karma). Still fewer move ahead. I'm blessed to be here, at my age, with a human birth, a living master and a teeny weeny desire to know the true purpose of life. It's all that I need to last the rest of my days.
I've always rued over my inability to explain to people the beauty of the Art of the Living course and convince them to experience it first hand. And telling myself that their karma probably doesn't allow them to taste it, doesn't do much for my confidence. Sure, I should surrender that too. But somehow I haven't been able to do that until... I learnt a little pearl of wisdom. A slight shift in the consciousness that seems to be spreading some sunny shine.
It's just a little shift in my focus- from not being able to convince people to do the course, to approaching them with the consciousness of a mother-with true care, a sense of belongingness and love. It seems to have made a little difference and broken through the dark cave, letting in a single clean white ray of hope in myself. And I'm smiling wider.
Ooops, I sense a trickle of doership here. Surrender O, surrender. Haha! Happy day dear ones!
1 comments:
Soooo happy to have you back! Things are gonna go awesome on 'Lap Two' cause you are really blessed and deserve only happiness, happiness and oh, HAPPINESS!
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